Must Have Done Something Right

"Your boyfriend looks like he's out of your league."

now thank you. absolutely THANK YOU. /irony

I hate to be so crushed by stuff like this. I know I do deserve him. I know I do deserve to be happy. But I'm also aware that he is definitely more than I can afford.

I've always had the hottest guys as my boyfriends and I never quite figured WHY. Better, I always had the hottest boyfriends who had no idea they were hot until they dated me. I'm always the one to make them see it. And once they see it, they become even hotter, and they realize how much of a piece of shit I really am, and how much better they deserve.

So in the end, that's probably why I'm always sure that everyone will leave me.

I don't care who the fuck wrote the forsmpring, but you nailed it. Straight onto my weak spot. Because I'm perfectly aware that he keeps doing more and more things for me and I can't give him anything back.

But he loves me. I know he does. I know he's true in everything he tells me. And you know what? YES, I am VERY lucky to have him. But I do have him. He's mine, he loves me, he's faithful, he's perfect. And it already took me more than 4 damn months to really believe that, don't make me doubt it again when I was finally starting to let myself be loved. PLEASE. Because I do deserve this. I may not be perfect, but I do think I'm pretty, and I do think I'm worth it.

I'm grateful to have him, I recognize how lucky I am, thank you. We love each other, that's what matters.